- Thursday, September 07, 2006
i guess its one of those mood swings again. its hard to say i love you, its hard to say i need you. im just feeling random. its the lyrics for Until The World - The Afters
whenever im tired, i go into 1 of those depressing moods. but i dun care. cos i noe in a while i wont be. maybe i'll call some people.
i've been like sleeping at 1am these few days. i feel its so wasted. nothing accomplished at night even though i slp late. well, some1 said that i didnt have self discipline. and hmm, maybe its true. but that set me thinking after i read in the papers today that Singaporeans have plenty of job opportunities abroad. tts cos they want a piece of Singapore. mostly cos of our ability to speak 2 or more languages - being bilingual is impt.
at this age, im alr thinking abt jobs. but i dream abt going abroad to work n stuff like that. family or rather marriage wld be another issue. maybe my priorities might change when i get to that stage. although i find working overseas nice, i have to be fair to my family as well. if working in Singapore already gave us a hard time juggling between family and work, wat makes u think working abroad wld be the same. it wld be near impossible la, personally.
ahh, God has His plans. and im really trusting Him. correct me if im wrong, but its one thing to have faith, and another to believe with no actions. the latter is called false hope. anyway i've really been thinking a lot lately. about a myriad of things. i dun have the liberty of time to blog abt it,but hey, i think im a thinker. haha.
i gtg, time for prayer with my buddy.
afterwhich its time to retire for the night.
Life without You means nothing to me. Life with You would be a whole lot different, a whole lot happier. You found me, but now I want more. More, more. This is my cry. I know You're reading this. Can I knock on your door? Can i call?
Your love leads me on. No love but Yours. Thank You. Thank You so much.
- kc
